This is Aneesha

Energetic, carefree and open minded are the first words that pop into my head at the sound of her name. She's the most approachable person I know, and someone who gets along with anyone and everyone. Her extraordinarily large personality can come as a shock to many who've been deceived by her innocent petit figure and shy smile. Her spirit is strong and contagious, and there is not a single second I spend with her where I'm not cheerful or lively. I've always said that one of Aneesha's best qualities is that she's a great listener. She's someone I can just sit down with and rant to, and she'll just be there to listen to it all, and so it happens that she knows me the best. In my 16 years, I've never felt more comfortable in anyone's company. Her accepting mindset makes those around her, feel secure and welcome. There aren't many people in the world like her and that is what makes her so cherishable. 

This is her, this is Aneesha. 

Makeup: Glorious technicolour. 

In my eyes, Aneesha can only be expressed through a range of colours. She can't be described as something singular because she posses so many qualities and aspects of personality and traits. For her look I used only the brightest of colours, really focussing on the intensity and how much they stand out as I think this is the only way I'd do Aneesha's distinctive identity some justice. The bright colours not only represent her glamour but also her individuality and eccentricity.  Aneesha, I feel is a dare devil and though this look I think that is evidently expressed.  The not-so-usual colours speak for her peculiarity and uniqueness.

As the first day to year 12 approaches, I crave to create. My desire to try out something new heightens, and I regain the confidence I had lost a few months ago. I strive to achieve my ambitions. I tackle down my insecurities and worries and eagerly reach out to those who can help me establish my goals. I've decided to start a new this series on my blog and YouTube with my friends.

Check out the video I made along the blogpost!

Something new

I've been faced with what I think you'd call a 'writer's block'. 

Google search: Writer's block is a condition, primarily associated with writing, in which an author loses the ability to produce new work, or experiences a creative slowdown. The condition ranges in difficulty from coming up with original ideas to being unable to produce work. 

Although I wouldn't consider myself a 'writer', it is my main form of expression to many people over the world, through this blog. I seem to lack the motivation and creativity to write about anything at this point because everything seems like it's been done before, resulting in a loss of self expression for a few months, which drove me insane. 

However, to be a little cheesy and to quote a famous idiom- every cloud has a silver lining - I found that although writing is what I'm used to, and what I consider to be my most preferred form of expression, there are more outlets and platforms that I can experiment with. And that although I might feel that writing isn't really working out for me at this moment, it doesn't have to mean that I limit myself to what I'm comfortable with or completely block myself off from trying new things out, and rather that I should look at this 'writers block' as some time away, like a vacation to try something new out. And so I decided to finally give YouTube a go. 

I've always wanted to try and make YouTube videos, but I've always put it off. My lack of proper equipment has always been my excuse, and it has held me back for so long. But yesterday something sparked inside of me, and suddenly the absence of a huge camera and artificial lighting seemed to not be of concern anymore, and I created a short video. 

I think I've realised that I need to do things, because I enjoy them, and not because I want to impress others or to get anything out of them. The sheer joy I got by filming, editing and publishing this video put me over the moon. I realised that fear of failure needs to be set aside, and that there is nothing you can do about people's negative judgements of you. 

What I worry about the most is that people will feel I'm competing against them or stealing their ideas/ spotlight, that what brings me joy, will eventually become something that I am teased about or something that will be used as a weapon against me to put me down.
But what can you do about it? I can either live in fear and never step out my comfort zone and waste all that potential or I can accept myself, my strengths and my creativity and I won't need to prove anything to anyone. 

I've linked my video below and I would really appreciate if you gave it a watch, liked it and subscribed to my channel, and leave feedback on the comment section. I want to thank all my blog readers for all the support on here, without which I wouldn't have gained the confidence to try out something new. Your comments and feedback are always so uplifting and they encourage me to keep doing what I love. Thank you.